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2008-09-15T04:21:00.000+08:00

gone and going

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2007-08-23T01:19:00.000+08:00

Finally, no more cramping of info into my puny bird brain & spending practically the whole day at the library growing the size of my ass. Alas! free at last : )

Sigh.. beneath all that happiness lies a really raging bitch waiting to flare out at everything thats pissing her off right now. Like my lap top is running at god knows how slow that my sentences are lagging by almost 10 secondas after i type them out. How i am feeling? Its like a small kid all excited upon hearing the rings of the ice cream man. And the not so happy ending, she drops her precious cone on the ground. Freaking everything is really pissing the hell out of me.

Alright picture this, me speaking on behalf of my younger brother to my dad, telling him how ej should be given the opportunity like alll other children, or rather little boys, to play computer games & have his time on the computer. And even coming to an agreement on his behalf, entitling his to play time on the com after his paper tomorrow.. & me feeling al satisfied and proud of myself as a sister. Then! i decided to treat myself to one eps of One Tree Hill before retreating to bed for my well deserved rest. Only to find out that my younger brother kind of screwed up the computer by inserting some floppy disk w virus into the computer. CAUSING THE FUCKING HARD DISK TO CRASH. so now,m we are pathetically reduced to my darn slow laptop & my parents' room com. the demon in me is like a time bomb waiting to explode. erks.

and moving on the more upsetting turnpoint of the whole night. Deja vu. I've felt this disturbing 6th sense before. The feelings & situation are almost identical. My 6th sense feelings after "this thing happened" was exactly like before. Amidst those smiles and assurance, i know something is wrong. Despite all your counter arguments and debating. Some thing in me is just telling me that aint the way things are. Something is amiss. I know a part of the story was altered and made up. How do i know. The look in your eye and actions gave you away. So clearly. I wished,sometimes, that i was naive and gullible in such situations. Somehow, hearingonly the good things really makes one life easier & stress free. We've both sinned & made mistakes. We have hurt each other by carrying out insensitive actions that we both wished we could just take back if only we could turn back time. ( Well, thats how i feel on my part.) Knowing that hiding innocent actions would only lead to misunderstandings and accusations. The foundation of trust already brittle and in nedd of strong reinforcements. Just tell me .. THE TRUTH. my heart aint made out of rock. like the titiantic, even the unsinkable will eventually sink.

2007-06-20T18:01:00.000+08:00

Sentosa getaway tomorrow & the day after. i can't wait to getaway from everything. just the beach, the luge, the food, the sunset sunrise, darling & my family! But at the same time, im kinda freaking out that i haven't really studied for my tests next week. The concentration level is just not there and i can't resist the shows on Cable TV. its was never a good idea to change my studying method[ Studying at home instead of the library]. Distractions are killers and not to mention, the weight that I've put on from all the junk food. : (

I guess its never kills to 'fail' once in awhile. Its the falls that motivates you to work even harder the next time right? It better be! I've been consoling myself over the whole not-studying-at-all fact. Because.. its the holidays & holidays are meant for pure playing & enjoying.. not.. mugging and sticking your stinky heads into god-damned notes. : )

I baked blueberry muffins for tmr: ) It smells good & that couldn't stop me from eating one already. Uh huh, talking about losing weigh! Alright, gonna meet the boy in a while to hang out & grab more ingredients to bake more muffins for tmr [ Currently, there's pathetically enough muffins go around ONCE. 5 muffins?]

+ eight! I can't wait! I've already given in to temptation, peeping into the yellow paper bag from rachel & korkor :] I see Paul Frank!

Sidetrack a lil bit, i haven't been sleeping well lately. Though i sleep in till really late everyday & i get my more-than-enough 8 hours of sleep daily. Im haunted by nasty nightmares. Yea, its only a dream and it doesn't necessarily mean something. But, these dreams are affecting my mood, making me thing too deeply into issues & screwing up my days : ( Whatever, die bitches!

2007-06-15T00:49:00.000+08:00

i have drained my bank account to a really pathetic state. And mind you, i haven't shopped or spent much recently [besides the pants from river island i got a week back].
So i have not worked for months but my dad still assumes I'm loaded enough to pay my OWN BILLS.
Sometimes, i wonder if they do care if i enough money to live on.
So yea, they keep going on about being more careful with our spending since they've spent quite a bit on my brother's education. But look at all the shopping my mom have been enjoying.
So I'm practically paying almost all of my own expenses; my hp bills, necessities [ shampoo, conditioner, blah] I'm so sick of this whole bill hp bill shit.
i guess this household is really UNFAIR. i guess i should start saving up to fund my own education. cause they'll probably assume that i have enough to feed, educate, survive on myself.

good luck bitch, welcome to poverty

I've lose practically all the motivation needed to study for my MST. nothing seems to be going in.
If that's the case, i might as well use the time wasted watching S3 of One Tree Hill ya?
Yoga-ed & Ab worked out today.
Darl's sweet talking and cheering up got rid of my foul mood : )
So right now,
I'm the princess & will be getting the princess treatment for i-don't-know-how-long-my-birthday-lasts (Forever? ) He's such a sweet heart, wanting to bring me out for shopping sprees, paint my wall, indulgence treatments. Whoa : ) However, i won't money-suck him. i guess the gigolo is all that i really need right now!
♥ de Grouch

2007-06-11T14:25:00.000+08:00

amidst all the rushing of projects and sleepless nights, all i longed for was a quiet, boring day i could stay home and laze around.

Term breaks here, but note the irony of what we have installed for us just after the break. Mid-sem tests! How brilliant of the school to combine our study week & holidays together.

My room's a sty, it need a revamp. Looking at the mess turns me so off but i can't find the courage to start clearing up the self-created mess.

As much as i really love watching my DVD: Gilmore Girls, One Tree Hill, The O.C. it sucks to know that i have to break the momentum as i can't get my hands onto the later seasons.

♥

high tea w you

2007-06-05T00:39:00.000+08:00

i don't understand why people have to be so harsh with their tone, words & even SMSes. I mean, its not like I'm a really bad kid that i deserve such harsh treatments from people right? Don't point false accusations at me, I'm just making a general statement. Another thing, why does my BD teacher have to be such a retarded & weird person. I don't wish to repeat my story for the umpteen time again. He's just so strange man.

Anyway. Darling & I had got into some quarrel over the whole you-didn't-bother-to-msn/call-me-until-you-finished-school, you-didn't-bother-to-call-me-after-work-and-tell-me-the-plan, you-don't-put-in-effort-in-searching and you-dont-understand hu-ha drama just now. Gosh, even we act like childish pity kids at times too. I'm just upset over the fact that he misplaced and lost his ring ON our anniversary. On all days... it had to be that day. And now, its gone forever, its somewhere but we don't know where. We searched high and low but to no avail : ( . [Well does 30 mins of searching my house amount to intensive searching? : ( ] Things got much better after he brought me out for desserts at Cafe Cartel @ Siglap. 50% over cakes. Yummy. But just a little too much. Suffering a sugar hangover now. Cartel Special latte was not bad, just a wee bit too sweet to compliment our cakes.

Corporate Finance was a major disappointment. Investment cleared. CRAA & BD up next. Oh boy, Tell me when all these assignments ever end.

On a lighter notes, we managed to rip One Tree Hill : ) There's really a season 3 but Gramophone doesn't have it! And season 5 & 6 of Gilmore Girls too. This sucks, they should really update their rental range.

Snapshots
Picnic on our anniversary. We actually made those food our self & it tasted yummilicious : )
Sentosa

Car Exhibition @ Millenia. I see the kid in him : )

Ikea

2007-06-01T15:00:00.000+08:00

the weekend is finally here and may i start thinking of what to do besides projects and more projects? This whole project crisis is really testing my endurance. Pushing my body beyond its limits, and testing how long can a person survive on minimal sleep and a 9.9 magnitude of stress overload. Sleeping an average of 3-4 hours on a daily basics is not funny. the tiredness is compiling and starting to affect my mood, my appetite, my skin.. practically everything of me. I can't think of one recent day when i don't have those pumping headaches and those eye bags are really bothering me. Why does my body have to be so dependent on my sleep.

my body's suffering from symptoms of withdrawal from the whole e-learning week aka. holiday, the sun, sentosa, gilmore girls and a whole lot more. i need a good mani and pedi to pamper my poor self. i want to go shopping & be able to find something that's extremely nice and affordable. the whole gss thing is such a big turn off cause the stores are all looking like factory outlets, with clothings messed up in a pile. items that i fall in love in really aren't in favour of my current financial situation. my lap top's dying, lets just assume that its already dead cause its so slow and it take snail years to load. im yearning for a new laptop. one that's sleek and stylish! i love bimbotic goods cause they are just so nice to look at. but no, i want one that's have good specs as well. oh boy, i have really high expectations of everything and a really really empty wallet! : (

Anyway, darling and i are really into One Tree Hill. Oh gosh, i love such shows. They really blow me off my feet and sweep me into another land. haha a rather dramatic and interesting one.

I have a pile of work waiting for me to start on. Please please come the day when all project submissions and mst are over. When that day comes, i can finally get half my life back. : ) More slacking at home watching dvds. more body pampering sessions. more sleep. more making out sessions. more time to spend with him. more time to shop. and finally... time to finally finish what i left half done.

2007-05-30T01:10:00.000+08:00

this lack of sleep is really taking a toll on me. my headspins. i get really bad headaches. and to sum up the misery, i was so tired that i actually fell asleep during Shrek 3. i felt like banging my head against the wall when i woke up only to see the credits rolling. Project works aren't going so well. im really looking forward for everything to end. damned investment and craa project. mst. the following 6 wks after that. [the holiday after thats cool. i need a good break] & lastly for my whole poly life to end. 1.5 more semesters. geez. its taking forever to come.

investment projs stealing my sleep for tonight. no sleep. no nothing. pure punching of numbers into my calculator. this is life. life really does sucks at times like these.

good night world. sleep away while i deal with damn numbers

2007-03-18T02:06:00.000+08:00

Its your day : ) Both of your smiles brightens up my day.

Just.. forgotten

=D I cant wait for the 22nd! The whole 'playing and exploring with the new phone' feeling excites my soul.

WICKED!!

Plus.. baby gave me this really huge pink easter egg : ) its really sweet and thank you! its so huge and i really cant bear to eat it.

2007-02-16T00:46:00.000+08:00

http://starblog.stomp.com.sg/Index.aspx?Type=view&bid=349#

late nights and much anticipations, all wasted.

V Day was bad. probably the worst ever.

and...

Im not exactly the happiest girl in the whole wide world.

whatever

2007-01-20T00:40:00.000+08:00

gawd. lets so absofuckinlutely pop more pills, burn and die. nothing/one's showing pity on my pitiable soul. why why tell me. im doing the same things. doing it 'right', but no never purrfect. lets dread life. pray time would fly by tmr. minus the pain. the mental torture. the deafening sound in my mind. tell me tmr's the last.

mixed feelings about my LAST day of y2. miss my girls. some nasi bryani loving. yummilious teas ...etc... dear god, bless my soul for itp. zoom me across to term breaks once again.

hmm its only 2mths. it'll pass. i'll be fine. yeaa right.

Grant me this sweet escape to fantasy land.

astro - not

2007-01-12T01:35:00.000+08:00

i dont get the rationale for doing a stupid journal for my astro. hmm in the first place, why study about this nonsense. it makes no sense at all.. 7 more weeks of journal to go. Oh gawd!

I hate doing many things. i hate asking my parents for money. As if asking for transport and school money had to be begged for. i cant wait to get a job, earn money that i can call my own, then get a house, move out of this place and hopefully this fucked up feelings i've been habouring for past few months will go away. Whats family for? One where everythings has to be so formal and restricted? One where even using a pimple cream required permission for? If that's so, i should have been screaming ( lead by examples) at my brother for using my contacts solution, at my mum for using my belts. Why make life so rigid and hard to live by. One may be calculative and selfish but there are times when and people to whom exceptions should be made to. It makes no sense. This family makes no sense. Dont get me wrong. i love my brothers. I wont trade any other brothers for them. Sigh. tell me why.

darling sweet pea : )

LOLA!!

2007-01-03T17:35:00.000+08:00

Festive seasons are OVERR and here comes the rushing of projs after projs : ( initally started on a 2007 resolution sheet but its half done and i misplaced the file on my com. 2006 ended off beautifully.. meet up with my fav class, 6B, lunch and shopping with besties. Endless proj meet ups with ade and hui. WHENS OUR DIM SUM.

2006-10-31T01:21:00.000+08:00

THE LAST PIC IS IRRITATING THE HELL OUT OF ME. =( why cant i take something. just STM!

2006-10-25T01:30:00.000+08:00

long weekends are just pure love. time out. fats shed. coffee making. senile chats with na & baby. & double pay!

i guess we need a break from work. its exhausting, irritating, nail wreaking & problem causing. Maybe not all the time, but at times. life has been going really good. Time is mostly spent with baby, hitting the gym, snuggling and spending quality time together, being a coffee maker, wandering around aimlessly in town, shopping at vivo, movies at cathay & TD! though school has started for almost a month, the holiday mood still lingers around. Last sem notes are still shattered everywhere and ive yet to do something about the thick pile of my CURRENT notes. What a sty. Yes its bad. Wednesdays are officially declared holidays for me, so spring cleaning tmr morn, lunch with baby and shopping. my nails are in urgent need of a good pampering manicure and pedicure session. my hair screaming for more 140 bucks treatments and a long dued haircut. my waredobe is seeking for new clothes. and i need a tann dammit.

gd night

2006-10-10T07:54:00.000+08:00

time check. 7.48am and i have no idea why im ditching my sweet dreams to come online. dammit. wasted efforts of waking up at 630. taking god-knows-how-long to find the digicam cable upload the 'extraordinary' shots. and now contemptating whether to attend photography class is at 8.

Anyway, vivo city is nice. having more shopping centres is nice: ) i likee

2006-09-27T01:15:00.000+08:00

The holidays are over but the new sem seems to be kicking off on quite a good tone. So more quick clementi shopping sprees, pratas, ice tea & my two best bitches : ) Needless to say, the true biatches are we-all-know-who. Its plain childish! Puzzles me.. do they do this out of fun, laughter, joy or just plain Jealousy?

Though my bank account and wallet cries out loud from the big big hole burned in my pocket, life's going perfectly fine! The mini financial crisis isn't really taking a toll on my happiness. Although it places many restrictions on the various entertainment and food that we can spend on, time spent this way is so much more meaningful. The strong urge to shop is back, while my wallet screams no, my mind thinks otherwise. i want, i need and i will get! hehehe if only

Baby and i tried our luck picking up patricks at PS today. BOY is that 'pink man' round and heavy. 9 bucks gone with the high hopes of another patripus : ( I love the father of the pink men! Always patient with me with my slow gaming self, stuffing me with food so i won't starve, showers me with plenty of hugs, kisses & flying kisses, waits for me even though i take ages to shower after gym, doesn't complain when he goes shopping with me, bears with my crankiness & ( dont say im ungratefuly)thank you for the levis shirt : ) oh yes! he's such a darling for putting up with my wet washed feet on your bed( u know where)

Mondays gives me the blues,

Tuesdays are digital photography & Gelarie Waffle Day,

Wednesdays are LOVE! no school = spend the day with darling,

Thursdays are sleep in late, lectures & yoga days &

Fridays are 9-5s but the sign of the coming weekend!

Saturdays burn those calories away &

Sunday's Church.

2006-09-22T15:13:00.000+08:00

every promise is just a lie

Goodbye to this fucked up world

2006-09-18T02:42:00.000+08:00

2006-08-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

i guess it took me 3 days to comfirm my thoughts. 'Action speaks louder than words'. God dammit, history repeats itself.

Ignorance is a bliss

Just remember when a dream appears
You belong to me
And I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too

2006-08-20T20:53:00.000+08:00

Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot. TICK
Who calls you back when you hang up on him. CROSS XX
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. CROSS
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead. TICK
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. ??
Who holds your hand in front of his friends. TICK
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. ?? if he really do care, he would have called. CROSSS
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her." CROSS i know u swear about me in front of haider teletubby :)

2006-08-20T02:55:00.000+08:00

Swing out time.

2006-08-08T02:31:00.000+08:00

Every time it rains at night, tears just keep rolling down. But who gives a fucking damn? You don’t. How funny. This always happens EVERY semester, before every paper that requires fucking lots of brain cells to store piles of useless crap. Only now, there are two papers. Are you happy now, world?

I rowed this boat out so far, only to have the sea change its tide before the finishing line

2006-08-01T19:12:00.000+08:00

Today, Missy decided to ditch lessons [that had to have 4 hrs of break inbtwn. with only 3 hrs of sch], travel to the other end of the island to have her nails perfectly manicured [ blood red in anticipation of our nation's bday], do some random window shopping with her chua-tan-ang-lin ladies and then crash the library to start on my over piling load of report and presentation slides.

keep popping in maltesers and strawberry lakerols.. some lonely mundane syndrome.

i need some sleep. dehydrated and exhausted. gimme a break! ugss

Home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

2006-07-26T17:57:00.000+08:00

our new found slack hut.
we've got ladybirds on my ears : )

i guess im not fated to attend lessons. such a jinx wasting my time travelling across this red dot. Baby's real busy with his fyp. i guess monopoly's my cure and new found addiction. dont give up cause one month of hard work will pay off.

till then. expect nothing more

2006-07-16T13:07:00.000+08:00

Its such a pity that the world has to be filled with liars, hypocrites and copycats. Dont bother, its a childish world we're talking about.

Im stressed out. help me out by giving me 48 hours a day. arugh.

on a lighter note, im really excited and looking forward to gym for the next few weeks. dad, rach, darling, auntie tiang will be coming down too! And.... Sheena's joining planet fittness! lets work those flabby abs my dear. : ) she's a joy to my life. peng's an angel too : ) i love u besties! Anyway, sheena and i can start drooling over Julian Hee while gyming. He goes to my gym and na claims he's an abosolute eye candy. HAHA. darling should come down, u would be my no.1 eye candy. okei im taking rubbish now.

its a junk yard. i cant find my tutorials.

My lollipop : )
i love you baby. thanks for talking me out of those stressful nights and cranky spells. my pillar of support. " come here monster!!"

Jacket from dad : )

2006-07-12T16:47:00.000+08:00

you gave me the sweetest surprise of all ! love you!

Haagen Daz with my boy

Thank you mummy, papa, kor, ej, darling & rach! <3>

Bdays & soccer are pure love.

I totally dig funky dads who rock climb & sporty moms who rock the gym.

We joined haider, william & issabel for the world cups finals. first E2max was SOLD OUT. then the coffee house was Fully booked. Coffee Club. fully booked too. We got free entry into devil's bar but there were no good seats around. Head to Hard Rock Cafe where the drinks burn holes in ure pockets. 2 jugs of beer for $90? hell yea. im not a beer fan. lost 25 bucks on italy! dammit. but im so happy italy won! omg... the night was fun : ) pure soccer, screaming & shouting, cheering. i cant wait for world cup 2010. there were no cabs in darn orchard road. reached home around 7? did my report and headed straight to school. omg. i only had 1/2 hour of sleep!

Anyway. hokaido fair @ TM drive's me kinda high. heh. cream puffs. There's a food fair in taka.. check it out man

Darling being the sweetest of sweet stuff got me a 24 packet box of m&ns! love you. love it! hehe. thank you baby! when all seems down and everything's falling apart, you come up and apologise and gave me stm so 'unusally loved by me'. hehe no one else except you would know what that its HAHA. '_ e l _o_ _ o' : ]
pls.the heart lollipop <3>

Dad's home! without my brother: ( he got me a really sweet pillow and supre jacket . i love 'em. come home quickly. everyone misses u.

2006-07-04T21:03:00.000+08:00

When we're happy with each other, we talk. When we're not, we just ignore. Is love like this?
Just last week i organized a surprise for you, and everything was just so sweet, smooth; n perfect. During the night, unforgetable words/phrases flew out from you; "You're so sweet","Why are you so sweet","No one has ever done this for me before", and ofcourse"I love you". But now i'm utterly disappointed. Within a week we have became so cold towards each other? Well, you thought what you did was right. But you'll never know the hurt inflicted on me. Its just you and me, why complain to a third party? You could have handled me yourself. Did i ever say stuff to your parents before? NO, because its wrong. You even said if i had told them, you'd hate me. So why do it to me? If i were to steal again, just report me to e police and tell me dats ur way of caring.

I'm always thinking abt you. n i love you, truely.

2006-06-25T12:42:00.000+08:00

people should stop ** and have some **
omg.

2006-06-25T10:56:00.000+08:00

3 weeks of holiday is almost over. im not satisfied!

it spells fun, cheap thrills, love, heartbreaks, make ups, butt butts all over.

aiight. fun. but it could have been better.

i cant believe it. gwad.

lets see. bbq @ ecp. 3 days camp over @ baby's. gotham drink and get drunk.

escape with lil bro. runaways with broiie. crystal jade meals with na. sleepovers. ecp blade blade blade. butter factory with peng, na, ster. one night isn't enough. cup noodles & prata in the wee hours. chocolate buffet @ fullerton with baby.

baby baby baby. things seemed to have changed so much. why.

i love you.

i wished things could be the way they were in the past.

dammit.

then again. i wished u had more time for me.

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i built sandcastles in the sky.

just come away with me

2006-06-19T00:39:00.000+08:00

okei. simple questions u take for granted be to asked daily aren't supposed to be asked. for you know this leads to something. or the ans aren't really what you want. simple rules broken.

u should. cause i do.

even for the day, it couldn't be of any exception. its saddening. oh yea. "its just another date.why bother so much" then.. why bother about anything. cause anything becomes nothing.

this is bad. but who cares? i guess i am the only dumb person to even bother to break my heart. drop a tear. hurt my feelings. its time to stop girl

everyone's getting love & fun............... wheres mine

2006-06-13T01:02:00.000+08:00

"Her feelings she hides.

Her dreams she can't find.

She's losing her mind.

She's fallen behind.

She can't find her place.

She's losing her faith.

She's fallen from grace.

She's all over the place.

Be strong, be strong now."

2006-06-05T00:44:00.000+08:00

as u said, we lack trust. in fact, its everything we lack.
part of me gives up. i can't stand ppl who do things behind ure back.
sorry i dont **** *** **** ****.

2006-06-04T13:20:00.000+08:00

there so much to update.. but theres simply no time to sit in front of my dump com and type em all out. hahha. life's fucking fun!

2006-05-11T01:36:00.000+08:00

school's sucha fun place to hang out. my two poly friends are a bunch of SIAO CHAR BO. everyday's a holiday : ) shop and drop. eat and drink. bangles oh ling ling long. prata and more lil india outing.

baby's like busy busy busy. just chillo & not fall sick dar dar : ) i be a good bird and sit on ure window. tho it bores me to death to wait [ sometimes it gets so bad i just wanna fly off the ledge to shop and come back again ], ill do anything for you.

on a heavier note. sometimes, it feels like BANG to remember a person's flaws. then i console my being to a stable note. its disappointing, but ive got to let it fly by. tensions so tense, where do we start? like walking on tight rope, this gotten me tensed to the very last hair. oh boy. maybe its me. like u've said all along.

2006-03-26T10:45:00.000+08:00

yesterday was such a good day. checklist..
1. stressfree!
2. got my ipod scratch-free and back in tip top good condition
3. got a hair cut
4. stylist blew my hair into such a lovely shape
5. had chilli cheese fries!
6. we were lovely to each other : )

2006-03-22T08:51:00.000+08:00

gosh this feeling is exhilarating! stupid website processes at donkey snail poo shit speed. pissing me off real bad. ive even got time to blog.[polly just trying to fast time faster or vent my anger on anotehr slow poot website. sucks.]

2006-03-09T09:00:00.000+08:00

if one day i woke up and realised u're not here what would i do?
i'll go out to look for you and wont return till i've found you
Would you be able to say you loved me every day I was around?
Yes i would be able to say i loved you every other day.
Would you regret not loving me more?
No regrets loving you for the rest of my life.
Would you cry for me?
Cried for you a million times.
Would you tell the world about our love which once was?
I would tell anyone who is interested in listening.

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I've never felt love this strong before
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where ever we want to go
I don't want to live without you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

My love is true
There is no need for sadness anymore
We'll live everyday happily
I'm faithful
You're faithful
We're a perfect couple

2006-03-08T23:52:00.000+08:00

If one day you woke up and realised I wasn't here anymore, what would you do?
Would you be able to say you loved me every day I was around?
Would you regret not loving me more?
Would you cry for me?
Would you tell the world about our love which once was?

I know I would,
but having said that,
I don't want to wait till that day.
I love you.
Love me.

Guys will be guys,
you can't change them.
You will always be you,
i can't change you.
i'll never be able to.

Break heart break,
fixed it with stitches all over.
One day it heals,
the next it frails.
urgs. prawn mee was sweet. so was the stick game.

2006-03-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

some b* b* some b* home and happily wiped o* all the f* whole tub Haagan Daaz Ice Dream. So u dont f* come h* all the time. that doesnt m* you can b* some b* h* to f* on everything! s* urghs.

2006-03-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

If I were a month I would be: March
If I were a day of the week I would be: Friday
If I were a time of day I would be:
If I were a planet I would be: Jupiter
If I were a sea animal I would be: Starfish
If I were a direction I would be: South
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: Handpainted Mirror
If I were a sin I would be: Lust
If I were a historical figure I would be: Napoleon
If I were a liquid I would be: Blackcurrent vodka
If I were a stone, I would be: Diamond
If I were a tree, I would be: Royal palm
If I were a tool, I would be: Screwdriver
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: Maple
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: Snow
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: Phoenix
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: Saxophone
If I were an animal, I would be: White Sheep
If I were a color, I would be: Red/Pink/White/Green
If I were an emotion, I would be: Ecstasy
If I were a vegetable, I would be: i dont know.. Baby Kai lan?
If I were a sound, I would be: Jazz
If I were an element, I would be: Carbon ( part of diamonds aint it?)
If I were a car, I would be: Jaguar F-Type concept car
If I were a movie, I would be directed by: Steven Spielberg
If I were a book, I would be written by: Charles Dickens
If I were a food, I would be: Chocolate
If I were a place, I would be: A beach party in Ibiza
If I were a material, I would be: Silk
If I were a taste, I would be: Bittersweet
If I were a scent, I would be: Salvatore Ferragamo Incanto Dreams/Charms
If I were a religion, I would be: Catholic
If I were a word, I would be: Sweetpea
If I were a body part I would be: Eyes/Lips
If I were a facial expression I would be: Smile
If I were a subject in school I would be: Mathematics
If I were a cartoon character I would be: Heffalump/Piglet/Pooh
If I were a shape I would be a/an: Heart
If I were a number I would be: 23
If I were a song, I would be: L.O.V.E ashlee Lost Without You delta Over linsay Cinderalla Story plain t's Baby I A Want You ..etc

2006-03-02T23:24:00.000+08:00

~~20 accounts~~
~~22 econs~~
24 mob
1 stats
DONE!! HELL YEAH!
2 play
3 drink
4 swim
5 movies
6 shopping
Its been quiet and simple, but its lovely i tell you! Watches Ghostship and slacked the day away. Gym ~~was~~ on our schedule but we missed it! My fabs gone flabs. my tann's gone pale. Horrid! I cant wait to get back to work, not denying the money factor, but it really gets fun at crazy at time. Our plans are almost there. Escape. a runaway to KL/Genteng. my secret date. so on so on. boy boy. the holidays really are finally here! so hell yeah! tann fun sleep fun kiss fun you fun me fun us fun party fun getaways fun babyboy fun. okei im crazy.. dot

baby baby, sometimes we fly over the moon and we get so high till the hangover starts pumping in. we start banging right down. down to the ground. and the feeling's so horrid! i hope we dont find faults with one another, accept each other like how we accepted the person we met on the 30 mar. Youthful and wild, i may be. but always truthful and faithful to you i will be. i know some part of me disappoints you at times. but im trying hard to change. change but not totally, im still the girl who goes crazy over tanning, over denim skirts, over shopping, over sunflowers, over doing silly stuff you never imagined how silly one could get. i hated being controlled, and i know you do too. so lets stay happy and love one another for who they are and not what you want em to be. i love you.and the baby green turtle who's polly gonna snuggle in bed with u tonight. mauckkiess :)

2006-02-26T22:13:00.000+08:00

our worries are gone, my finals are going to be soon in 2 days time, i really love my mom cause i think she's a really great women, darling's being so SO nice and sweet to me and im really loving my life the way it is right now.

i love our day. simple and sweet .baby and i went on a vcd/movie spree today! we caught House Of Wax, Cinderella Story ( Both of which had Chad Micheal Murray. Sizzlingg! ) Shriek 2 and part of this Korean Show that i thought was really sweet. Scrumptious dinner with excellent company, i couldn't ask for more! Baby and i ended off the day playing with my polaroid! came back home and had Haagan Daaz ice-cream and had fun teaching dad and my bro our new yoga moves.

Baby, thanks for being so nice to me! (ever since tt day at the interchange when u promised me sthm) I'll love you forever : ) No more stiff necks okay? hehehhe. smuackss!

2006-02-22T21:35:00.001+08:00

if only worries vanish with the click of our fingers, ill be a whole lot more carefree.
~~20 accounts~~
~~22 econs~~
24 mob
1 stats

2 play
3 drink
4 swim
5 movies
6 shopping

7 yadiyada!...

my entry's all rainbow-fanatic cause baby bought me my fav rainbow biscuits : ) + more chickens + otahs ! he's such a sweetie. im so shagged, ill hit the sack soon.

2006-02-22T04:52:00.000+08:00

4.52 and i finally think ive studied enuff of econs to hit the sacks. got a headache, a bad bruise, a troubled mind, jumbled up formulae in my mind, shivers from my high caffine intake, a heart out of place cause i miss u and all i really need now is that kiss & hug we haven't had for weeks : (

2006-02-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

my entry went missing! : (
im gonna watch Pooh's Heffalump Movie! : ) baby got me the vcds! i love him so much ! not only that, he got me choco frap, choco cookies, picked me after my test, try his best to make me feel love thou he's sickly down with the sickly African Virus. Hah! baby i love u. GET WELL SOON. ["WE LOVE YOU.."] im feeling all lousy. i banged my head so hard again the car, got so much stuff cramped in my head, feeeling all paranoid, gosh save me! =(

2006-02-13T10:14:00.000+08:00

Sweet valentine?
I'll make everything as sweet as you

2006-02-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

u 'stole' my Vday away.
u asked me the obvious,
knowing my mouth would contridict my heart.
Give me back my sweet Valentine.

2006-02-02T22:21:00.000+08:00

exams + r/s probs + low self-esteem + pumping headaches = stress + frowns

2006-01-25T13:17:00.000+08:00

ppl ought to learn to be friendly and smile.

2006-01-23T17:00:00.000+08:00

today's the 23: ) i love you!

CNY's coming and im anticipating! More money more food more everything!: ) i cant wait. Turning point is, im drowing under loads of project and upcoming presentations. Wed's my make up for my Stats test, that skipped cause apparently i was so stressed up that day, and i haven't started studying! My grades are sliding. i dont know why!? im putting in the same amount of effort (am i ? ), yet this is happening. Maybe its just that my classmates are working harder while im still slacking away. Enough about studies. They make me a boring fella.

Yoga! Mom & I started taking up yoga lessons recently. So far, i enjoy every lesson that ive been to. Probably my yoga teacher's compliment made me even more 'yoga-crazy'. Sad to say, mom and i are the 'vainest' pair in class. We are so critical of how we look, we visit the restroom before and after lesson and soon, we're gonna be geared up in full nike yoga attire! Healthy mon & daughter bonding sessions i suppose.

Now ab0ut my financial status. Its worst then ever! I yearn for plenty of items. Mango tops [ darn! the new collection's awesome. the corset. the tops. but they are so ex!], Charles & Keith heels [ but someone's got the same pair and its almost sold out everywhere. it alway's the case], Addidas slippers. [ 49 for those?! its out of my budget]. If anyone tells u yiling's always not satisfied with whatever she has? its not true. : ) Plus, Vday's coming, 'double-celebration''s coming, dad's birthday's coming. I wish i wish i wish, i had more money.

2006-01-10T00:38:00.001+08:00

splish splash. icy tops

honey pops. sugar honey

why oh why

ure making love all so fine

u got me drink drank. lost in time

feeling so great.

baby oh baby

i love you. you love me too?

: )

2006-01-07T11:25:00.001+08:00

lousy feelings inside out. i just need to sleep sleep sleep and never wake up to all these hectic stress : (

ure charming yet cute

serious yet playful

alluring yet fascinating

rough yet gentle

so hardy yet a softy

my darling yet a smelly butt : )

meeooowww!

do i smell chickens in the room!?

2006-01-04T00:30:00.000+08:00

happy new year!! 2006's gonna be a magical and cant wait for time to reveal 'em all one by one : )

xmas & new year was a blasting good time for me! had fun chilling, working, shopping[!!] and loads more with darling! darling gave me the sweetest box of card-roses-love-drawings: ) *melts* well, i miss na, peng, i wanna dance again. :( oh well.. too bad not everything's in favour for my liking.

im dying under my trunkload of projs & tests. but thank god ive baby around to help me with little stuff. *Huggles!* and a *smoocchhhh* : ) school's stressing my -10degrees butt out and thats no good sign. new year resolutions!? i dont really believe in them but this year, im gonna try writing out a nice long list : P

i want lollies, someone be nice and gimme some? : D

2006-01-03T15:22:00.000+08:00

ive always done my part by lifting u up high in the sky. but u r always wanting to come down. try to stay up there and life would be close to perfect

2005-12-29T11:15:00.000+08:00

perhaps its just another normal year for u. or rather.. perhaps i planted my star too high upon the sky.

2005-12-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

ystdy u shot me down

today u threw me high over the moon

i love to fly. keep me in the sky.

bye bye blue blues.

envy envy im watching narnia with my baby and my baby bro tmr: )

r

2005-12-24T11:51:00.000+08:00

roses. turtles. sheeps. ralph lauren blue scent.
combine 'em together , u swept me off my feets and made me fell again. fell deep deep into love with you : )

2005-12-17T10:00:00.000+08:00

catch me as if fall,

fall into this mess of self-pity and lonliness.

just make me feel loved. feel wanted. feel important.

OR at least. let me feel remembered.

the past few days were comforting. i got to wake up to a very very lovely face : )

yea yea. xmas coming. but whats holding me back?

2005-12-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

back from my holiday trip to aussie adelaide and currently left abandoned(minus my maid) at home! with no food. no drinks. no money & no CURTAINS! on a lighter note, i have plenty of choco in my fridge (my fav obsession), lots of honey good darling's company & pratas in the night! So i guess its time i stock up on more Sechuan can soups, cup noods & lemon diet coke!

[of cos u could please me more! bring me prata when im hungry]

he pampers me! he feeds me with god-knows-how-much food, choco, icecream & LOVE! im loved im loved loved by a very lovable guy: )

im so backdated on my sch work, proj loads piling up

`Ideals model CA3

`Frontpage design

`CRS discussion

`Blog for CRS

`MOB proj

just to name a few major ones.stressful new year. what a pity!

Caught Saw2 today. 1 word. Gross! we're anticipating King Kong! and yes yes . im feeling all jumpy all over cos darling's gonna be a sweetheart and bring me for Gelarie later! love.

2005-11-28T22:27:00.000+08:00

well, not again. wrong place at the wrong time.

2005-11-28T16:13:00.000+08:00

its clear that i'm totally yours

i love you

2005-11-27T19:27:00.000+08:00

perhaps its difficult to let go of one's past,
perhaps its even more diff to accept one's past.
perhaps i shouldnt let it affect us,
perhaps perhaps perhaps..

2005-11-26T11:13:00.000+08:00

just cast my shadow aside

2005-11-20T21:49:00.000+08:00

stupid reporters. they blow things up and mess up stuff. sheesh. once again. I DONT DO POLE DANCING. skdalkdhlks. its hip hop mind u.

im really trying my best to excel in my studies. wake up for lessons. do my tuts [which i nvr ever did till date]. study during my free time. but... my body mind heart just forbids me to do so! well, now we've worked up the time plan. lets hope all turns out fine! and ill be able to please everyone. plus. dance performance was really good! the crowd was so enthu. it pumped more life into us : ) but.. i guess.. all good things gotta come to an end soon.

today in church, i prayed for us : ) plus more more more.. and i told god, i really love you : ) so i hope we work things out and never part : D

2005-11-08T23:56:00.000+08:00

Robbed of my smile.

let me learn to smile and never frown
let me roll on the floor laughing and never let teardrops roll down my cheek
let me have ure support
let my feelings be felt
let me feel loved

words unspoken. memories still lingering
simple numbers. simple letters
uncover their hidden meanings
ure past. ure memories
all that left me pondering
my silent jealousy. my unspoken hurt
why are these happening?

2005-10-28T09:42:00.000+08:00

My maid had to go back for a break towards the end of my hols. Thats hindering my enjoyment for the last few days. I would have been over at dar's place swimming, gymming and slacking around. Followed on by an outing in the night. maybe a movie, some ice skating, bowling or just walking around. The night would be ended off nicely with us having dinner, him sending me home and me giving him a big tight hug! Sad to say, being the part- time 'nanny' in the house have made my plans gone haywire! Ive got to send him to school. pick him up. What a hussle!

Halloween's coming. I wonder how it would be like if everyone dressed up and went Treat or Trick in spore. Hmmm.

Darling and i got crazy and fooled around with the costumes in Isetan

After the IT pro's work..

the jedi monster

the snow princess! yay! : )

later then..

2005-10-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

wow its been almost a month sinced i last placed. quoting darling's words, it has been a rollercoaster ride for me. a few nasty encounters.. but.. loads of good ones!

today's the 23th : ) a day well spent! we got most of what we wanted! i got my flops and pussycat. he got his beanie and LEVIS _____ from me! time spent with him. memories in the making. a bond made. i trace back to the 'black and white' that got all these going: )

ive got a complain to make baby! hmm maybe writing it in the confession box does more good: )

i kinda like my new hairdo. however, it takes up too much of maintanence time: ( oh well. hairitage does my hair good! thats how the money flies away. been spending too much recently. my hair. dance classes. overpiling hp bills. clubbing. shopping. FOOD. TRANSPORT. what a hussle. imma gonna go broke.

im dreading the reopening of school. the dumb timetable is filled with breaks all over. it makes no sence at all. im just wasting my life away. stoning in canteens. walking around. wed's are my days. what else can beat 3hrs of school! :) i just wanna live on holidays. blading. cycling. gyming. swimming. slacking. bowling. skating. dreaming. hugging. kissing. [hehehe] eating. working[ not that i really fancy it but for money ill stick with it ] dancing. clubbing. sleeping. ____ing etc..

@ dance : )

darling and my new hair: )

2005-09-24T00:51:00.000+08:00

its been wake up. report to darling's house. snuggling up to him. breakfast. gym. swim. lunch. fun fun fun for the last study week and these 2 exam weeks(1 down.3 more days to go) its great going to to Coffee Bean. chatting up with nana the pokers. getting all excited and jumpy when darlin comes up. getting free drinks and loads of free food. i love it!

fri the 23 was absolutely my day! i love surprising darling with sweet somethingss. green lollis! Sakae made us FULL.Bloated and a tonn heavier: ( but great satisfaction! Bowling with darling's my new found hobby. he's too good for my own good!! * honey, next time let me win!!* Brothers grimm..well, thumbs up for it:) dar has lil knowledge on bedtime tales. * ill tell u some. sing u ure lullaby. cuddle u to sleep*

he's a rocker. he rocked my day. ohh so totally!

Sat's a study day! been playing too much. laughing too much. asking for too much for bike rides. cheap thrills. i want them all! dinner with darling's parents was good! Xiao Long Bao. gimme more more more! : ) well. shopping.. my all time fav. just fill my pockets with cash. ull make me a happy happy girl. all smiles and laughter. watcha waiting for?

sadness

2005-09-05T08:23:00.000+08:00

im sorry,
i tried not to hurt you but in the end got you so HURT,
i didnt mean to do anything, i was not playing behind youre back..
please believe me darling, u aint standing in between anyone. haiz
the thought of you leaving me kills me. it really kills me....!! it makes my heart weak and pain.. it drives my brain to madness.. i was almost to that state yesterday thats why i burst out so badly.. I DONT WAN ANYONE ELSE EXCEPT YOU.. you're the only person who will believes and understand me now. not even my mum..
im sure you know how much you mean to me,
how much i wan us to be together.
i didnt mean to hurt you so deeply.. causing those scars.
seeing tears in your eyes made me feel so much pain, yet it was all caused by me.
im feeling so down now, each time i think about it i feel like crying so bad.
i hope i can pass my exams. they're such a burden to me now.
I WAS IN THE WRONG yet you've given me a second chance.
im grateful that i can continue giving you my love.
i've never take you for granted
i promise i wont do it again. be it talking normally or helping her. i will not let you down ever again. i promise. please let us be normal again? i'll pray and hope god will help us. i will win back your trust.

sad sweet pea

2005-09-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

I love you and I need you don't wanna let go

If you want somebody else please let me know

Can't take it no more I feel I'm dying inside

Is this the price I pay for handing you my life?

I know I'm not perfect but I truly cared

So when you wake up one morning and I'm not there

Just remember I loved you it will never be the same

Gave you everything and you threw it all away

trust gone rusty. scars get deeper. mind starts racing. where do i belong?

insecurity drives me over the blues to insanity. grant me the strength to trust again. all these crap. im living in my man made fairy tale. knock me out of this dream. tell me the road's neverending. give me words to make this entry a nice one.

sigh

2005-09-02T22:23:00.000+08:00

ure my internal sunshine of my spotless mind

u rise and never set.

jealousy. it got u wild. got u envious. drove u insane.

we understand. our popularity's overwriting. drowns ure presence.

ure 'beauty' incomparable

a note of advice? grow up. wanna bitch? do it with style u plaguey snowball

my trunk load of projs, reports n assignments. just gimme a break

law-abiding bus conductors can kiss my arse. retained my bro's ezy link card i was using. urg...

darling's stressed over his exams. chill baby chill. ull do absolutely fine: )

na and peng's missing in my lonesome live. so empty. so hollow. fill up the blanks besties.

but thank god for blessing me with this captivated lover.

thank him for being there for me. always.

i need to go on some shopping spree with my mom. tho i shop quite a bit, its never enough. always running out of clothes. we hafta go shopping. soon soon soon: )

we'll be going for a swaroski jewelry sale next week. hurrays.on second thoughts, i rather skip that. such jewelry is not significant to me at this point of time.

i await this retail therapy!

im thinking of getting a lappy.

any good deals?

2005-08-26T13:30:00.000+08:00

our perfert crime. our perfect night
i kidnapped darling last night: ) hehs.

i was so early for ec today. really EARLY. i was the first to arrive. even my tut teacher couldn't believe tt the girl who once turned up fifteen mins before the 2 hr lesson ended was so early today!

well, total input = total output yah? how come my system is inbalance! my total output is somehow like way more than my total input ya?
and.
lets say the dd is inelastic, % decrease in Q < % increase change P => TR increase
and in my terms..
Q-> my eating. P-> my exercising. TR->my weight.

so i eat less. exercise more. yet i put on weight. WTh?! nvm. lets just hope dd becomes elastic then.! so.. enough of econs! haha.

im so tired. i skipped marketing lect. so here i am. rotting away. now, unable to sleep! boos.
so they said. talk to the shephard if the sheeps wont do.

i tooks pics of my house's pet. the iguana.

the dragon goes diving!

so i got vain & started snapping : P

its a gurl thing. : )

na pokers, hum ji pengs! lets meet and snap snap snap! : )

2005-08-24T22:11:00.000+08:00

thump thump.

here's the beat.

fast slow fast slow.

high low high low.

peak a boo.

thats our quarrelling strike.

now it ends.

let it rest.

aiight: )

well, once again another argument over the same old monthly thing. well. we'll once again wait and see. bump the bumpers. well. despite this. i love you all the same : ) nono. deeper and deeper by the days.

aiight. i notice my 'pmsy-dont-talk-to-me-du-lan' mood in school. oh help me?

yes yes. ive been going to every SINGLE lesson. EVERY DAY! pls applaude me? i cant take the risk of getting another warning letter. well i'll just freeze to bits. bore to pieces. : (

i love the *beep beep*-> *beep beep*-> ' hi darling love love' : ) heess. -bites you!

we had prata and ran off without paying. mwhaha. im feeling guilty. had choco milk shake @ ice cream gallery. YUmmppsss. : ) haha! DARLING I KNOW YOU STICKED THE STUPID 'Medium sized' STICKER ON MY BROS ROOM DOOR. COME AND REMOVE IT. NOW! my class's going to do CIP @ a old folks home. help me. a serious breakdown in communication. i cant click with them. fwerk. i need to wrap the pass-the-parcel things!

aiight. that awesome feeling. great wasn't it? 1000000 thumbs up : ) tee hees.

p/s. ure card ure card. only 'claim'able within 3 days. geddit?

2005-08-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

its the germs and virus season. ure sick im sick. everybody's sick! sooo... just drink up the water! : )

mob sisters. quite a dumb senseless show. haha!! should have listened to wise darling : P

im just so paranoid over some stuff. enlighten me. i hope things will go fine. they will right?

fine. im typing this dumb post cos darlin's busy doing his proj in school and im rotting at home : ( and my parents are complaining that im always going out everyday coming home late every weekday. and weekends im off early in the morn and home like after midnight? sigh. gimme more time with my sweet pea! yea darl's being a cutie day by day. he sings me my bear song. with his funny funny lyrics. does his dinosaur dance with hip-hop rock-and-roll action. then he hugs me and tell me not to worry and all the worries vanish. he cuddles me and i fall asleep. into. lalaland: )
yes coming home's kinda a dread. like see, i finish school at 12 one most days. im lonely im bored. my frens are busy with school. my classmates we dont reallly click that perfectly well that we hang out after school. darling has lessons till late. so i spend most days loning. stoning. thinking. consoling myself. then going home's a dread. a big big one. so i resort to retail therapy. i walk. i shop. i buy. i smile : D but all it got me was 2 empty holes. its a expensive hobby. really is! then i rejoice when i see him. its like fire blazing thru my veins. getting high high high on ecstacy.time flies. wrong. zooms pass when we're together. then my eyelashes get excited and start fluffling : )

he makes me so happy. he spoils me like his only child. he makes my world go round!

our lil sms convo thru star hub.

black bear:IM NOT A BLACK BEAR! im a red polka-dotted lady bird baby!

9*******:Haha but your nick is black bear! Which is so cute. Hee. Lady bird and bear are the same la ! All refering to my baby. Understand!? MUACKKK

black bear:hehe and u greeny pea and green monster. see the irony? haha but stil lthe sweet lovable uu: ) i love u . i always did. will always do :)

9*******:I would and will always love you too baby. Your my precious golden shiny white pearl! Thats why i'm gonna marry you. Hee! Scary?! Are you scared!?

black bear:no no im not scared. tho ure the mean evil monst. everyone in town has been gossiping abt. haha :) haha thats very sweet darl. wher r u!

hanleong's over the moon: ) yays !

2005-08-11T22:20:00.000+08:00

bum. projs can go kiss my arse. cause everyone's got a habit of doing LAST MIM WORK. kiss my shit kiss my shit.

ppl tell mi if im slow or what but. check marina square out. ull go Pheww- yeeww!

FWERK. I WANT MY SLIPPERS! HELP ME FIND THE PAIR OF SLIPPERS! I WANT 'EM!

okei ill help nana pokers announce. she's gonna sit down and have tea with ZAI ZAI so plenty of girls will be jealous of her . hahahahha : ) !

i have new orange polka dots : )
round round come around. see the dots. do you not?

sweet pea! and the lady bird

2005-08-08T22:31:00.000+08:00

my head's sun burnt.its got the prickling feeling. soon my HEAD will be sheding like a person with skin prob. fwerkk. plus the spiltting headache. this is no good.

my mom's sick. get well soon mommie! pls pls pls. scares me some way or another.

fom proj is so fwerked up. i have no idea on how to do my part for the written proposal! how am i sup to translate pics into words. 10 fweking pages long. HELP. cd assignment's 3 pages got me cracking my head into 2 and crapping like a crab. now 10 pages!

tmr's spend the day with dardar day. wed's another one. thurs proj day : (( fri's 2 hrs of school day. YEEPEE! : ) its sucha waste of time travelling to school for ec [ 8-10] then later a stupid pacc make up [5-6 ] i hate i hate i hate it! i rather go down to 0802 [12-12.. or should we just put it this way... 24/7 : ) ]

Well i need help over here . if you happen to flip thru the pages and find a UOB advert on its credit cards. do cut it out for poor lil me: ) ty plenty plenties! : )

i ate big big prawns for dinner! what happened to my diet. i hate 3 chokis. 1 mammi. 1 plate of mixed rice. veg & huge juicy prawns . fruits for dinner. pls stop eating excessively yl. !

i need a Scanner! : (

2005-08-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

Climb On'05! its a must join for me next year! : ) along with green mont darling, fin fin and dad :) [ plus all the other guys. ] saw many ppl i haven seen in a long time. jL, chelle, shuan, japh.

scorching sun. hunky bods. a cam in my hand.. lemme be ure cam girl. HAHA.

subway! i like : ) dar n i ate like monsters in cab.
did anyone say you should eat more subway? if no, GO EAT SUBWAY. its cheaper than macs, bk, lj and yadiyada. its HEALTHY and nutrious: ) eat more of it. thats what im gonna do from now on: )

oh yea. only ONE person understands this. Fast and quick. but i ~~like~~.. LOVE!

and one thing. my manicure's screwed! fwerk. my pedicure's still fine: ) my pussycat..

i hate going under the scorching sun in my shirts . my tan just get screwed! : (

yea dar's bro just kept making fun of his driving today. hahahhahahahahha muackies dar green mont.

2005-08-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

hold me and sing me my lullaby

come, il treat u to kopi with my profits i earned today. i could afford 2 kopi bing, 4 slices of kaya toast. For i only have 4 pathetic little bucks. what a pity! Ive been running all over school, persuading people, begging like a poor girl. 'Popcorns! One for 50 cents! Sweets! 6 for A dollar!' My successful flea market sales story. thats how it ended. 4 bucks

yesterday, i dreamt of you.
today, ive been missing you.
tmr? ill be love sick.
come baby. come by my side.
come: )

2005-08-02T23:03:00.000+08:00

shopping's my therapy! wouldn't deny i love to shop shop shop and spend all my money : D

gimme the money.. let me shop shop shop till i drop drop drop at ur stinky feet.
Anyone on for some shopping? =D

Anyhow. found a fwerking new shop that sells rusty bleah blah stuff. its fwerking good. bought a belt from there!

Tuesdays are half-priced waffles day! hurrayss

Aiight im supposed to be studying for my fucking stats test tmr and im here blogging. i hate stats and i hate the fact that i lost bits and pieces of my NOTES. shoots.

2005-07-29T23:17:00.000+08:00

pizzara then starbuckie. :)

guilty. fwerking guilty. i ate a BOMB. let me puke.

gimme some suga suga. make it double double. love me plenty plenty. make my heart skip faster faster. i want no dior. no cucci. no prada.
-i just want you.

2005-07-29T01:13:00.000+08:00

http://www.min-world.blogspot.com/
dont cha think im too smart. its almost a duplicate!

2005-07-28T17:13:00.000+08:00

back from my fwerking PATHETIC chalet.
aiight maybe it was fun just that i wasnt around half of the time.

my pussycat pedicure : ) rwahhss.

slept over at darling's house last night. #$*#$*(@#($* FEEL GUILTY PLEASE! : ( gonna smack ure head. my sound recording did justice! ! terrible terrible terrible. bad bad bad. haha.

swam and gymmed while he went to school! the sun's lovely ta'dae. i wanna hit hit hit hit the green ball. wanna wear wear wear those blades. someone please join me : ) hurray.

so i indulge in a brownie while i update this cob-webbed lonely blog. heh heh.

im so proud of my blue card.
i love my copper red highlights.
i love my white pussy cat on red toe nails.
i love holidayss.
i wanna get, get, get, get, you drunk, get you love drunk off my hump.
i wanna make, make, make, make you scream, make you scream, make you scream.
i wanna make, make, make, make you work, make you work, work, make you work.
i listen to My Humps : )
rwahhs

2005-07-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

today is blog-not day : (
sorry for everything. tam tam tam.

x)

2005-07-03T20:30:00.000+08:00

me. who else has access to your blog cept me and you.. -.- i guessed it'd be better for you this way..easier too..welcome jss to the blog. x)

bye. take care.
nigel.

2005-07-03T19:42:00.000+08:00

blardy hell. who changed my blog. own up. fwerk.

2005-07-03T05:38:00.000+08:00

AH. RELINK . aiight someone did something to this blog WITHOUT telling me. : (

kk im at t1's pacificcoffee waiting for my dad's flight. so tired. went steamboat at marina south with peng, na, darlin and haider last night. its so CHEAP and yea cheap. thank you for coming for dinner everyone : ) had a fun time cooking and disecting the poor snail. Rwahhss. mwhahah. : D we are SADDIST. EVIL. mwahhahah! so guys better not mess with us girls. hehs.
BIG thanks for my dear besties for the very adorable and cute pooh! love you girls! : ) after dinner, darling, haider and myself went to this fwerking cool play ground near Bedok court and had a splendid time playing! till we got scolded by one lady in the blocks above. [ to be cont. yadiyadida : ) ]

2005-06-29T20:09:00.000+08:00

bumping back to life! ~ :)

watched Initial D and boy! does it R.O.C.K my everything! mwahs. -drools.
Caught A Lot Like Love as well! pretty interesting story: )
hehs hehs hehs. !

well. im seventeen! #17 at last :) rwahss. i wanna say a big thank you to my big fat green monster darling!! for the ipod mini : D i still feel that i shouldn't accept it. its too expensive.for my own good. for your own good too! to mom for the personalized bear : ) its too cute. too huggly. btw. its called Fee Fee : ) dad for the kimono doll he got all the way air-flown from japan. bro n rach for the very lovely floor mat from Happy house. its nicely placed next to my bed C = my aunt for the lovely display dolls all the way from aussie. my other aunt for the pooh towel. hl for the pretty pair of earrings..ade jeannette huiling for my Gallas slippers! too sweet too sweet! : ) go on on on.. n yea Vedro!!! for the fattening tub of Haagen Daz ice cream he brought all the way for me!. vouchers from DBF01. happy house sheep from zhicai minzhong bson: ) chocos from Suuuuu. red packets from other. i promise pics later :)
aww ppl i like the gifts i like u plenty plenty : )

i commented that it seemed like a 7 yr old bday rather than a 17 yr's old! -leaps!

Soeul garden with dar. think i ate the amount i would have eaten for 1week when im on diet.

i need help with the ipod. cant figure out the functions. HELP

well. studied with darling n haider @ bedok lib today. tests on fri. mon. oh fwerks.

x)

2005-06-27T01:33:00.000+08:00

you need a chinese program?? like urm..nvstar i think..that's the correct name..yep..x)
and you're not the black sheep of the family..-.- don't be silly gurl..what's wrong..what happened again..=/ take care aiight? sm:)e

niiggeell.

2005-06-23T19:12:00.000+08:00

[edit] i cant load the lyrics of tong hua. help.

忘了有多久再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事

我想了很久我开始慌了是不是我又做错了什么

你哭著对我说童话里都是骗人的我不可能是你的王子

也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后我的天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你

你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局

你哭著对我说童话里都是骗人的我不可能是你的王子

也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后我的天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你

你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局

我要变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你

你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局

我会变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你

你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局一起写我们的结局 : )

Being sick fwerking sucks. i have to eat SOMETHING so i can eat the stupid bitter medicines. : (

ive got no appetite for any food. so maybe ppl should just give up asking me to eat. my mom and aunt has nothing else better to do then stuff me with food : ( BOO HOO. urghs. FWErKs.

however. i would appreciate the cadbury chocos in my fridge. out of point!

shoos: ( its somehow very disappointing.

mom. MY MONEY PLS.

besties. i freaking miss u two loads : (

hl. M O R E C L U E S . ty

yiling. fat fat fat.

mood swing me not.

~~so im the materialistic.unfilial.b~~~~lacksheep of the family.~~

~~.wonderful. im a useless piece of shit. i get what u mean.~~

2005-06-16T17:09:00.000+08:00

the week flew by.

like this

the puma bag's sold out. yea great. its always like this. fwerk. almost everyshop that had it doesnt now.

15th MY PAY CHECK. lovely : )

Father's day is around the corner ppl! get GIFTS!

i hate being paranoid.

YAKS. mind blog. enuff for now.

*jss : D

2005-06-13T22:45:00.000+08:00

You Are 18 Years Old

18

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Your Birthdate: June 28

Your birth on the 28th day of the month (1 energy) adds a tone of independence and extra energy to your Life Path.

The number 1 energy suggest more executive ability and leadership qualities than you path may have indicated.

A birthday on the 28th of any month gives greater will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach.

Unlike much of the other 1 energy, this birthday is one that endow with the ability to start a job and continue on until it is finished.

You may prefer to use the broad brush, but you can handle details as well.

You are sensitive, but your feeling stay somewhat repressed.

You have a compelling manner that can be dominating in many situations.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

i did more that made me sound so retarded -_- applaude i seem older than i am. do i? enlighten me : )

yak yakyaksssss~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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2005-06-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

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Originally uploaded by mezzagal.

just trying out flikr :)

2005-06-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

picture ure me. u wake up late. first thing u thing 'cab'. 2nd thing u picture the cab meter. whats ure next thought?

skip school! crash jss's house. stone there the whole day. even if it means being home alone! rwahss.

i had pizza: ) pizza we made together with his dad. -yumps.

my diet crashed today. 2 TWO cheesecakes. prata. 2 TWO kit kat chunky. pizza. YOGURT. screw myself for gobbling up like a nice round monster. - slaps forhead
imma not gonna eat tmr. good night.

2005-06-09T17:16:00.000+08:00

http://www.friendster.com/user.php?statpos=bc&uid=3038228

FINALLY. a soul who shares the same joy of Starcrossed with me. X)
out of point. next.

tues. MY mini shopping spree: ) guess watch. skirt from Zara. 2 tops from Zara. A long sleeve,my-brown-billabong-look-a-like ripcurl top.
parent's anni: ) unleashed.superb.jet li.eye candy dont they all have links: )

wed. mr & mrs smith! i love brad pitt. HOT!

today. skipped school. but my attendance has a TICK : ) lols. work @ cb. ROTTING in TP's commie lab. typing a senseless entry like this. -slaps forehead. mwhahha

2005-06-06T20:42:00.000+08:00

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

BAD HAIR DAY.
-slaps forehead

climb those rocks. rwahh. X) breakfast with excellent company.

get well soon nig! rmbr dont report to work tmr. if not ill tell chua. [he's at my place right now : ) ]

i should do something
something that would send my life spiraling
into a more exciting direction

2005-06-06T00:46:00.000+08:00

i won't hurt you
i'll protect you
i won't let the rain fall down
i'll always be around

and baby i will understand if sometimes
you just want to spread your wings and fly
and let your colours shine

and everyday i wanna be a risk you take
make a promise that will never break for life

you're my butterfly
don't fly away open my hands your free
praying you'll come back to me
you're my butterfly
don't fly away
you're my reality
always be my gravity
you're my butterfly
come on and touch the sky
you're my butterfly

i won't forget you
or neglect you
won't let no-one take your place
in your eyes i see my face

and baby do you know that everybody watches
every time that you take flight
they're blinded by your light

every day the feeling's gonna be the same
i can promise that will never change for life

..ure my butterfly : )

i love the songs i received today. thank you : )) baos.
listening to 'em. kinda make me tear. they are all sad love songs.

morn talks.
oh pleasant to my ears.
yayness bleagh bleagh bleagh.

2005-06-05T01:47:00.000+08:00

`hot stuff

and this is one hottie thats so.. awwee. : )

life's so unfair.
i wasn't given good looks.
i wasn't given a good body.
i was given fats
i was given a screwed up face.
sighh. : (

2005-06-02T21:45:00.000+08:00

places u shouldnt visit
paths u shouldnt walk
thoughts u shouldnt have
all she've done
but shouldnt have

yellow seats. yellow tables. blue money machine. brown box. blue words. colour me a rainbow.
assure me theres a pot of gold on the other end.

poke me. poke my head that gives me pain.
entertain me. entertain my boring soul thats restless as it can be
shed me. shed my unsightly fat that brings me nth but pure misery pure agony pure sore in the eye when i look in the mirror.

yes im not in the right mind to blog. i slept too long to talk any sense. -slaps forehead

school's fine. too slack till im too bored. too far.

work is pouring it. urggg
yakyakyak
my head's no good. shoos off to lalaland.

muai sweet young thingg. haha

<3

2005-05-30T20:53:00.000+08:00

darling i shall bring you to school tomorrow

you complete me
<3
jss